Thursday, June 17, 2010 @ 7:24 PM
Bloggginggg againnnnn. Just came back from a teacher's wake. He commited suicide 2 days ago. It really hit me hard cus he tried to talk to me on facebooka few months ago but bcus I was busy with other stuff I didn't really reply him and I didn't know that he had drepression then. I knew he was feeling lonely but I just didn't do anything about it. Feeling like shit now bcus I just didn't care about others enough, always wasting my energy on stupid stuff which is actually nt impt afterall. I know I couldn't have prevented it in any other way but oh wells. I don't know. Sucks. :(:(
I've always been trying to leave. I used all sorts of ways and means just to leave everything. Now that I get what I what, I don't exactly feel very happy. I don't miss it in any way and I don't wanna be in anything like that again but it just feels like I've lost something that was given to me..maybe its just human's greed, when you just want to have it all. I don't wanna be this kinda person so I'll just bear with the pain for awhile more and just blog alot more then I'll go back to who I used to be. But, however painful it might be now, I know I did the right thing. For the better of everyone.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I've been through much worse before. Just gotta hang in there.
Ok hopefully I don't blog again today.